hmm. the past few days have really been suck... the kids have been hard work and we have done alot of walking to say the least. ive only got two days left with them before the move to their Dad's place. I know things will be better for them there, they have a cute little room thats all decorated girly and pink, and a huge lounge to run around in.
tomorrow they dont have any daycare so i think we are going to make the most of our time together and do something fun; go to the park, each icecreams all day and watch movies in bed. i have been snuggling in with them at nighttime just to get the extra time in with them, Lonnie gives the BEST cuddles ever. she puts her little hand under my neck and pulls me in close, its so lovley.
i am pretty scared about leaving the girls. im scared that they will hate me for it when they are older, scared that our bond will be broken. But i know that if i dont go, i will end up going insane and have even worse Daddy issues than before if i miss out on spending time with Dad.
so we're going to have drinks on friday night to say see ya which should be nice.
gonna go get wasted on codeine and zoppies now.
xxxx
tomorrow they dont have any daycare so i think we are going to make the most of our time together and do something fun; go to the park, each icecreams all day and watch movies in bed. i have been snuggling in with them at nighttime just to get the extra time in with them, Lonnie gives the BEST cuddles ever. she puts her little hand under my neck and pulls me in close, its so lovley.
i am pretty scared about leaving the girls. im scared that they will hate me for it when they are older, scared that our bond will be broken. But i know that if i dont go, i will end up going insane and have even worse Daddy issues than before if i miss out on spending time with Dad.
so we're going to have drinks on friday night to say see ya which should be nice.
gonna go get wasted on codeine and zoppies now.
xxxx
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